high school is forever (negative)

 making a bad week (and year so far) even worse by watching my high school's cheerleading dance videos . there are some things in life that you can never really get over; i think having my dream of being a cheerdancer in high school get crushed is mine . the last time i watched those videos were in 2019 in the few months before the final cheerdance tryouts were taking place, and i had so much hope at that time that i'd be able to finally accomplish my only real ambition as a high schooler . but yeah i got in and then they took me back out with no real explanation :) if only they rejected me from the get-go, it wouldn't have hurt as much, but they gave me hope and then snatched it away from me immediately so LMFAO i'll never be able to move on